-Not mature enough?-

Dear diary,

He said, I am not mature enough.

Yes, I admit I am not mature, but am I childish? My heart told me I am not, perhaps sometime.

Sometime, I will just like a child, once feel not safe, once the safety feel disappear, my heart will feel extremely uneasy.

Sometime, I wish there are someone will talk to me, not about others.

Sometime, I wish I am just like a child, talking nonsense, being treated as a child.

I wish or I will, the difference are only one of them I did it, often perhaps, one of them I am just wish.

Yeah, I am not mature. And, I wish I am not.

This is the only way I can crazy whenever I want,

This is only the way I can laugh loudly as I want,

This is only the way I can just do whatever I want when I wish to do..

Because I know, once I am a adult, 

All of this will become a dream, just a dream,

I don't want them become my dream but a reality,

Let them be a history of mine that actually happened and will forever save in my mind.

So, please forgive me for causing trouble just like what a child will do.

I just wish to be a child for right now. 

A child's life is free of burden. and they always get attention of other. 

Jesslyn,

15/06/2011