-Jogging-Waltz-Bii mini concert-

Dear diary,

Today, 18 of June 2011, full of activity. Actually just 3 things i actually did.

---First---

Time: Early in the morning, about 7 o'clock.

Venue: Garden.

Person involved: Chia Hui, Kah Khoon

Activity: Jogging

Reason: Accept invitation of Chia Hui.

Description: 

   Yes, I did jog with Chia Hui. Only about 3/4 of 500m only. After that, we just walked and enjoyed the view there. I feel so happy because it's early in the morning and the sun didn't really come out although it's already about 8 o'clock. While we walked, we met Kah Khoon who just woke up and come garden to look at the greeny things.(XD) In all, we didn't manage to actually jogging, but walked with Kah Khoon, talked about everything. Of course, include the waltz class we gonna to attend after that.

---Second---

Time: About 9.30 in the morning.

Venue: Block H in University

Person involved: Cynthia, Chia Hui, Desmond, Kah Khoon and Wilson.

Activity: Waltz class

Reason: Learning waltz because take part in 'Waltz With Love' which this event has a purpose of breaking record book of Malaysia by gather 700 pair of partner to dance waltz.

*Specially note: The song we used to dance waltz is "Time of My Life" by David Cook.

Description:

    First time I dance, first time I dance with partner, first time I dance while wearing high heels, first time learn waltz.. Don't know still have how many first time here. When I first walked into the room, I was shocked because of the number of pair inside. There were so many partner inside to learn waltz. I thought I will feel very scared, and shy, of course, but I didn't when I found that everyone there also have their to intention to dance waltz. I manage to be brave to actually dance with my partner, Desmond. It's kinda unbelievable. Because I never thought I can dance with him seriously. Maybe because he is also want to learn. 

    Actually, our learning session is actually start from 9.30 in the morning until 11 o'clock. But we learned until 11.30 but still didn't realize. The most important thing, we didn't learn finish yet. whole the song, only know the front part. That's why we attend the next class, which is from 12.30 until 2 o'clock in the afternoon, to learn the whole step of the dance, waltz. 

    Well, it's quiet hard. It's not easy for me to remember all the step in only few hour and get used to all the step, finish the song without any mistake. Oh yeah, the most difficult part for me, not only the memory, but also the tempo of the song. I used almost 1 hour or even long time to get the tempo. Seriously, I not really get it. Just go with the lyric.

     However, we manage to learn whole the song. But we only practice until half since the another half is just repeat the steps. Hope I manage to remember all the steps and finish it.

Oh yeah, my leg is hurt because I wear high heel to dance waltz for almost 3 hours. Just I realize how hard for us, girls, to wear high heels to dance. Especially 4 inch high heels. ><"

---Third and last---

Time: 6.30 in the evening.

Venue: Herritge hall in University.

Person involved: Cynthia, Chia Hui, Kah Khoon, Desmond and Boon Foo

Activity: Attending Bii's mini concert!

Reason: I never have a chance to so close with a celebrity before and of course the VIP ticket is free and most important, Bii's songs are damn nice.

Description: 

    About 5.30 in the afternoon, Chia Hui came to fetch us to dinner before we go for the mini concert. We are not actually so excited at first. Because he not look so handsome in poster, and of course I don't have this habit to so crazy with a celebrity. 

    However, I am so excited and high in the concert. Because Bii is so handsome~ Totally different with the poster! Although I have already understood that he is a Korea born Taiwanese, but I feel so amazing when he walked out that time, he is super handsome just like what every Korean are. Oh my god, I feel so 'high' when everyone around is so excited too. He even said 'sa lang hei yo' to us. 

    I love the part he sang, his sound and songs are so nice. I never thought when I actually saw an artist actually sing right in front of me, and my seat is only the first 3 row, I will be so excited. Thanks to Kah Khoon who successfully get the poster when the mc throw it toward us and gave it to me. I thought I can get his signature and perhaps took a photo with him but at the end I didn't get his signature. Because he is busy and have to rush to Ipoh where is he next stop. So, he only sign on the album. But I didn't bought it, it's cost RM39, seriously I never bought that expensive disc before, and my parent didn't allow. So sad I didn't get it..

     Even though, I touched his hand while he pass by my seat. Nothing different. Haha~ But he is handsome. For a moment, I hope I can dance waltz with Bii, just for a song or even one minute is enough for me. This is my little dream. Haha~ I guess you guys will think that: this girl is dreaming.

    Well, in all, I am so excited. I have my chance to took photo with an album he signed. Happy~

In all, today I am busy and I just arrived home at about 10 o'clock. A happy day I have.

Learn waltz, hehe, my first experience, and I love it.

Have a close distance to see an artist, also my first experience, feel so nice.

Thanks my friends~ for bring happiness for me. ~^^~

Jesslyn,
18/06/2011

-Big Change of Mood-

Dear diary,

I have a good time today.

Today, I can totally forget all the negative stuff and smile charmingly. (Is 'charmingly' a correct description? Ha~ I have no idea.)

Yeah, being different today, even my new friend sense it.

And I wan to praise myself: Jesslyn, you have done a great job!

Why I said it's a job? Because yesterday told myself to make some changes, yet, I manage to throw the negative stuff. ^^

Well, how about right now? No, I am feeling not good at all.

Seriously, I found myself.. erm.. powerless? (translate directly~ hehe!)

Yeah, choices put in front of me, I don't know how to make.

There is prom in my university. Theme: Waltz With Love.

I am thinking.. should I go?

Seriously, I wish to go, not for what purpose, I just want to learn the dance, WALTZ.

But the point is, partner? dress?

Yes, I do care. It's just make me more vexed when something happened.

I called mom, ask for opinion,

she said: As long as you understand what you are doing, love yourself, then go for a try.

I have no idea why these few days, talking to her, I feel want to cry.

Homesick? Guess not. It's just too much bothering me this year.. Yeah, It's just too much..

Guys, I fell scared going too. Just look am i, who i am? nothing..

Damn it! Such a different mood today!

Jesslyn,

06/06/2011

my semester break after KL trip.

It's brand new day~ I am having my holiday, Semester break.
Hmm.. for past few days, i am just staying at home, do nothing but just browsing internet, downloading movie, fetching bro and sis going somewhere else. That's it! not busy but not too free.

I am actually thinking of finding a part time job. but i am quiet scared to do so. forgive me~ it's just my first time! only 2 week i have to do a job, will there someone need me? Perhaps i should get start. Just feel lazy sometimes~

Now i am keep practicing my english. Now it's look kinda fine. But i am sure when this article go to teacher's hand, sure there is a lot of mistake being mark on this.

God, will I get what I want? I means the scholarship. I really wish I get it. But seriusly, what will happen to us? Six of us, being a good team. Will they blame me? However i am sure, i wanna have it. PCP, yes! I want it aand I will do well.

C=

It's semester break~
After i have been studying for almost 4 months, and having so much exam,
finally it's holiday.


This holiday, I go KL with Cynthia, Kang, Victor, ChunLek, KiatMeng and Shujian. Together we stay in Shujian's house.


And I have done a thing. Looking back, it's a crazy thing.
It's complicated.
But I am happy to do so.
Just to say, I am willing to do so.


Seriously, I am quiet scared when facing the cop.
All the data I given was recorded down.
However, I know this is what I want to do.


Crazy thing..

ME. Just ME.

Yes, I admit I am not that kind of girl who will smile always, cry whenever feel bad, crazy around because of a single thing. I am just me, normal and different with other girls.

I don't like chocolate that every girl should like.

I don't like strawberry that every girl should like.

I don't like shopping that every girl should like.

I don't cry easily in front of people that every girl should have this right.

One of my friend told me, you have broken the image of girl in my heart, out of five which every girl like that is chocolate, shopping, strawberry, flower, and..(i have forgotten the last one), you have already don't like three of them. Seriously, i knew i am not just a normal girl who love every cute things, afraid of any scary things.

Yes, I might frighten because of ghost, yet, i love ghost story, action movie...

I am not just like other girl else. I am just me.

Eternal vampire? Perhaps. After all, i am still quiet, some say that i am cool.

Guess it suit me. VAMPIRE. =)

错过了！！因为，病了！

4月6日，错过了去TESCO的机会！！

不甘愿！可是……

原本要去的，可是待在家，开始觉得热热的，然后就头痛，眼睛又很累，

结论是：去睡觉！往往睡觉是我解决头痛的方法……

睡大觉~最有效的解决方法！

电话就突然间在耳边响起，我慌张的拿起电话，看也不看是谁直接听了。

歆打来说是要去TESCO，对了，她还有问我有没有看到她的讯息。

本小姐在睡眠当中怎么可能有看到呢~

说着说着，觉得很冷，往被子里缩了缩，

含糊的问了，要骑脚车去学校才一起去，

第一个念头：什么？

第二个念头：不祥的预感，好像生病了。

忍着想去的欲望，我拒绝了。

怎么可以这样理智~内心的我可是很想去的说~

挂了电话，

好冷哦~

往被子里缩了缩，继续睡。

可是，还是好冷，就把风扇关了。

坐在电脑前，抱着枕头，期待着寒冷快快离开我。

生病了~

果然，不负我的期待，它离开了，

可是我的脑袋就越来越热，真个脸蛋好烧哦！

或许是我的手冷的关系吧~我心里那么想着。

就把风扇给开了，开了2号的风扇，

另一个期望：别给脸蛋那么热。

结果，手脚还是有些冷冷的，脸蛋的热度好像有那么一点点地减少。

不知过了多久，歆回来了，拿着一个（还是两个？）TESCO的塑胶袋。

看得出，她很热的说。

她说想到我一个冷”孤零零“地在家，所以拒绝了和其他人的邀请，回来和我吃午餐。

感动噢~

呃~我应该感动是吧！呵呵~好啦，真的有一点点啦！（要我承认这样的事，好像很难的。）

等待午餐准备好之前，糟了！脸蛋又在热热的，好像越来越烫的说。

把我的午餐匆匆享用完毕后，赶紧把panadol拿出来吃了。

可是水没了，想说下去买水。

一站起来，有些天昏运转，然后头痛！

又来了，之前病了的时候，头也是这样偶尔疼一疼的。

买完水，喝了一大口，

我就log in了朋友所说的‘周公online’。

睡觉了~应该加个：又再！

今天睡了好久呢~

不懂是药效发作了，还是自己喝了很多的水，烧总于退了！

yeah~~期待不要在烧起来吧~

只是，喉咙还是痒痒的，让我咳了很久，还是不舒服的说。

快点好起来吧！今晚的夜市有好多东西吃的。

万一又不舒服，我只好呆在家养病了……T.T

时间滴滴答答的在不断地提醒我，它在走着。

仿佛就在警告我，不要在逃避了。

不安的感觉持续漫延

我却无法让它停下

正如时间不断地旋转，

我阻止不了。

现在发生的一切一切，

显得那么的不对劲。

顽皮的一天

今天 2月28日

本小姐逃了一堂课

原因：生病。

打算星期五再做replacement。

是真的生病吗？

不算是吧……

只不过有些许的昏沉沉和敏感所引起的伤风。

呵呵~本小姐居然有这样的一天！

应该算是奇迹吧？

话说，回来后的我，

差不多半个小时后，

就睡着了，睡了2个小时左右，

感觉上睡了很久很久……

最主要的是，身体好像发烫般的热，吃了雪糕似乎没有减少这份热的感觉。

悲剧

昨天早上起来，妈妈就接到电话，
小姨丈头剧烈疼痛，一只手已呈现无法动的现象，然后就昏倒在床上，不省人事，
到医院检查时，发现情况已严重，脑筋、血管爆，导致脑充血，整个脑肿起来。

过后，就接获消息，医生表示这种案件的病人都无法挽救的。
若要开刀，就算救回也只是植物人。

小姨一定很伤心。
小孩4名还小，最大也只是2、3年级，最小才1、2岁，就这样就丧失丈夫、丧失父亲。
闻者都感到伤心。

昨晚的时候，妈妈去了小姨家。姨丈已脑死，是救不回了。
今天早上，或许小姨会带孩子去看姨丈最后一面。

姨丈平常并没有喝酒的习惯，也没有高血压，
认识胖了些，但健康似乎还好。

说真的，听到时，有种想哭的冲动。
毕竟一个好端端的人，突然就这样毫无预告的走人。
我们事外人也只能感叹怎么世事那么难料？

放假的开始

终于，SPM考完了。最后一天是华文，感觉没那么好。
不过算了吧~毕竟都过了。

原本，下午和班上同学去Sunway玩的。
可惜的是临时有事，妈妈也说时间太夜，
况且家里还有些事……
真是的！好像看戏噢~
想到爆炸了！

可是现在，感觉昏沉沉的，好累噢~
是因为考完试的关系？
觉得怪怪的，手脚还冷冷的。
好像要生病似的……

夜深了，光着的脚丫在冷风中摇晃着，
突然好像喝一杯热热的摩卡，
让身体热一热。

今天，不舒服~

考试前夕

小学的时候，好像一直都有看到这个题目，
一直到现在，还是有写到的感觉，
考试前夕，每一次都是那几个要点，
可是……今天我要说的不是考试前我该做什么，
而是，这几天我在做什么。

星期四的时候，最后一次学车，隔天就考了。
那天被老师骂，因为我总是做错，
连我自己也觉得不认识那天的自己，
不过也算过了两个小时，当天最后一次出路，
算是没有什么做错。

考车的早晨，除了紧张，还是紧张，
我很少这样紧张的。
不过在bahgian II没有做错，只是有一件事。
话说，我驾着车去上山前那儿停下，等待考官的指示，
我往想倒后镜，发现那个编号在我后面的马来人驾着过来，
本来没什么的，谁知感觉有些不对劲，
才发现她越加驾越近，我也不知该怎样，
就这样，砰～她撞我！
我简直就傻眼，我都不知道该怎样。

然后，考官叫I.D.I.的人过来，
我看着他不知所措，他就叫我驾前点，
结果，那个买来人驾车不到一分钟，就宣告肥佬～
当时有种＝＝的感觉。
不过或许她的事件，我parking的时候，考官也没什么注意我。
过关～
接着就是出路，我……我……我超紧张地说。
拿着那张纸，居然是Ａ？！
不会很高兴，也不会很伤心。
结果U-turn的时候，我忘了打signal，
无语……都忘了，就算了。
还好到最后也是过关了，１６分刚刚好，不多也不少。
呵呵～高兴中。
拿到license！哈哈~

今天去图书馆了。
原本想和妹妹一起去看Ｈａｒｒｙ　Ｐｏｔｔｅｒ的，
可是考试前２天去，好像有些大义不道，
所以取消，让妹妹和弟弟去就好，
我就继续呆在图书馆吧～
整个下午，我就是啃书啃书，啃个不停。
读完了吗？老实说，没。

明天还要去拜牛奶佛，待会儿要去买牛奶。
现在的心情怪怪的，
现在的我我不认识，
我不知道该怎么办。
拜个神罢了嘛！
真是的，我怎么了？
就这样啦～

盈，ＳＰＭ加油哦！
１０Ａ一定要拿到～

未来

毕业了……还是想不懂为什么毕业了。
我还没玩够！
可是，这是事实。

今天，11月12日，星期五，我回学校了。
本来打算问Annes老师一些升学资料后，
就在学校啃书。

谁知，今天找老师的人……
汗！居然那么多人？！
挺多毕业生回学校的。
还以为可以早早问完，然后啃啃啃~
所以也想顺便拿了career test。

C.I.A. 我的结果。
conventional, investigation, artistic
话说，A和C同时有的人，是矛盾的。
CIA感觉像是什么刑警是的。哈哈~
conventional-常规。
说的是保守，理智，循规蹈矩，一步一步来的，适合office的工作。
investigation-研究。
说的是科学家之类的，喜欢做reseach的人。
artistic-艺术。
说的是爱幻想，完美主义，丰富想象力，艺术型包括画画、摄影、音乐等。
矛盾指的是想要有自己的意见（A），却又会被自己的常规性格（C），
这种人指的是我，很矛盾。

听着老师的话，我猛点头~
全中！
无语……真的很准。
看了工作表，这类型的人好像很多工作都能做。
不过理科这条路，我是没选错了。
C的存在证明了。
对了！歆也和我一起拿了这个测试。
结果和我差不多，一样3个字母，只是顺序不同。
我们是同类人。哈哈~难怪每次要去吃东西时，选个地方也那么久。
两个矛盾的人站在一起，还是会矛盾的。
怪怪的一句话，不过说起来挺顺的。

然后，就问了一大堆东西，有些围绕着UTAR而走。
A-level和Foundation的分别，我算是看出来了。
该走哪里？我不知道。
我应该计算读完出来的岁数比较年轻，
还是应该算我觉得读哪一种会对我比较有帮助呢？

Facebook那儿，我post了：
迷惑……迷惑……还是迷惑！
阿~~~什么前途？！怎么开始烦这些了？唉……
心烦……心烦……还是心烦！

指的就是字面意思。心烦不足以形容我的心情。
红豆冰教育展，我应该会去了。
只是Eastin Hotel才有位，
去不去已不是问题，
问题是过后会去Queensbay走。
一个人去走？似乎没那么好，
或许说，爸知道了会不允许，
原因：危险。

我想去，只是谁想去呢？

生病记~小猫记

好像很久没更新了。

现在的我 有些冷，
或许是因为天气的原因，
也可能是我还是有些不舒服的原因，
头挺重的，还有些痛，
生病了。
这次应该是这两三年来感觉最严重的一次吧？

星期五补习的时候就有些不好的预感了。
回到家过不久就发现，预感成真——
发烧了~又发冷的说~
结果当晚就是吃药睡觉，
10点多起来过不久又睡觉。

隔天的时候，答应朋友和她们去Auto City的万圣节party。
所以早上和下午做的事就是——
吃药、睡觉、玩电脑。
读书这回事嘛，已经是给我丢了。
晚上的时候，还好好的。
只是9点多的时候，看完万圣节的show，
就冒冷汗，不舒服的说，
结果，就和朋友去坐下来聊天。
丢我妹和她的妹妹两个人继续看。
哈哈~不过看到他们的化妆，真的不是盖的说，
简直是非常厉害……

今天的我一样，
电脑、吃药、睡觉。
哈哈~简直不用读书了。
看书头会痛，
电脑就会忘了这份疼痛。
哈哈~变懒了！

话说，前阵子家里来了一只小猫，
母猫也不知跑去哪了，
一看就知道刚出世不久。
结果我们就带它进来养。
只好喂它喝奶粉泡的牛奶，
而且还不是小孩子的奶粉，
营养也不是很多，
只是想说喂它喝，让它饱就好。
养了一个星期又一天，
今天它去见它的祖先了。

很可惜呢~我爸还想说要养它，想买猫粮。
没想到真的撑不到了。
为它哀悼~

Meeting after graduate

Suddenly, I realised that it's just six days more to go until our graduation day.
But, I just have 3 days to stay with friends in school.
Perhaps, I can still go out with friends at Saturday night.
Violet's mom is having a halloween party at Auto City, I am thinking to attend the party with friend. But, the problem I have is will dad allow? And transport.
Hmm, i am going to ask dad tonight. Bless me~

This coming Wednesday is the graduation day,
afternoon, 5S4 are going TAO having a lunch together~
Freind said: Waw~ so costly.
Yeah, it's expensive place but it's worth going with friend.
But, poor dad's wallet~ Haha~

This coming Thursday, i am out going with 4S7 friends.
But the date and time is not sure yet.
I hope this gathering is fun and success too.
I will ask my god to make it realise. Hehe~ ^^

First time writng in English. I guess, there are mistakes everywhere.

幸福の存在

在FB看到了一系列中这一张图画，关于十二星座眼中的幸福。
看到这个的时候，我笑了。是因为这张图画所说的都是真实的吗？
其实，它是有些对，但是不只这些会让我觉得幸福。


其实能让我感到幸福的事很多，简简单单的一件事就是我感到幸福的泉源。
我晓得，其实幸福真的可以很简单。

♂ 幸福就是一位朋友遇到麻烦后，第一时间打电话给我求救，哪怕只是一件很小的事。

♀ 幸福就是走在路上，突然有人拍我的肩膀，我一回头看竟然是自己小学的同学，然后我们一起聊小时候的回忆，很开心！

♂ 幸福就是开心地听完一首歌，心情顿时非常的愉快~

♀ 幸福就是和自己的好朋友一起天南地北的聊天，聊聊彼此的事情，说说自己的那个他，就这样聊了整个下午就是不想停止。

♂ 幸福就是很朋友坐在一起读书，不需要任何语言，不说话也不会尴尬，却拥有了一个快乐的下午。

♀ 幸福就是和一大群朋友一起去看电影，在电影院里一起大声笑，就好像整个电影院只有我们而已，那么快乐！

♂ 幸福就是整理一大堆纸时，偶然发现几个星期甚至几个月前和朋友聊天的字条里写着满满的字。

♀ 幸福就是翻着毕业纪念册，看着朋友们对自己的评价，写给自己的祝福，突然想微笑的快乐！

♂ 幸福就是偶然我去去你家，你来我家，彼此交换自己的做菜心得。

♀ 幸福就是在我失落的当儿，你察觉到我的不对劲，在我的身边默默的陪着我，听我诉说每一件伤心的事。

♂ 幸福就是和自己的好朋友一起散步，说着生活上的每一件事，听听彼此的意见，突然惊觉原来事情可以有这样的解释。

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幸福其实很简单。每一件生活上的事都是幸福。
不要问自己到底幸不幸福，因为自己已经是活在幸福的怀抱里。

我的幸福不需要花金钱，
我只需要身边的朋友的关怀，
我只需要好朋友懂得自己的一切，
一个小动作注意证明其实你是关心我的，你是真心对待我的~

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突然，只是今天傍晚才上网，发现……
怎么突然朋友都写Blog了…（虽然不是全部）
汗~

好久没有这种感觉了，
一天之中上网，看到很多朋友、网友都写了部落。
从以前到现在都是很喜欢去阅读朋友的内心的故事，
不论是悲、乐或疑惑等，
我想参一脚，给给意见，
给与安慰，分享快乐等等……


怎么仅是说废话，今天的我傻傻的。


昨天，去上申请lesen L之前必去的latihan amali。
呵呵~歆说，我很steady。
我也不知我哪来的勇气……
只知道，那时候的我其实也有些许害怕，但好奇心胜过一切吧~
再加上我又有些睡不醒的感觉。哈哈！
我确实知道我自己，真的很想驾车。^^


其实，昨天我有一个想法，
我想写一篇自己没讲过的内心话，
一些自己的故事里，对我来说挺重要的人。
可是，今天的我犹豫了。
开始的时候，突然就很想写看到的事，
然后这个念头就突然间躲起来了（其实就是我忘了~呵呵！），
现在我想起了，却无从下手。


不知道自己在顾虑什么，还是很矛盾吧~
果然觉得，这种性格不属于我，
在这里那么公开的场合里，
我会退缩……
哈哈~在嘲笑自己呢~
没有用！


话说，今天也挺宁静的啦~
虽然电脑妹妹在用，也不会有那种闷死的感觉。
霸着电视遥控器，拿着化学练习坐在电视前，
只是有些不想做练习、不想读书的冲动。
看着美国连续剧CSI，还有一部忘了什么名了，
觉得他们的科技好先进，
会不由自主地在想，
马来西亚的这类工作，从证据中寻找线索，
有那么的先进吗？


若有，我很有兴趣~
是因为看到这部戏的情节……
其实现实生活中哪有那么容易啊？
哈哈~想太多了吧！


三姑问我：盈啊，你这样能读书吗？
我的答案：哎哟，搞不好看多了，以后能做这类的工作。
三姑居然回答我说：有道理！
哈哈~真的有道理吗？真是的，我乱想一通~
若那么容易就能当上警察，那就……世界大乱~


不过，从戏里真的能学到一些知识啦！
简简单单的几个物品，就能造成爆炸。
哈哈~学了一门知识。

嗯……不错，说明看电视也能学到课外知识。^^